"I can't." She almost scoffs at him, but manages to hold it back at the last second, making a small noise of frustration instead. There's no room for saying the wrong things anymore. With a sigh she pushes herself to her feet and begins to pace silently again. "If this doesn't end here, now, it never will for me. I will always be wondering, always hoping, always willing to do something incredibly stupid that will hurt both of us later - likely exposing this conversation to your family and getting you in more trouble than imaginable. I don't want that. I don't want this either, but I would never forgive myself if I got you in trouble like that."
Another, much more frustrated, sigh. "I just want to be free, Viatorus. I want to not feel these things anymore. I want to let you go and to move on. But right now, without hearing those words from you, I just fucking can't." Her gaze falls on him finally as she stops pacing, stern and unrelenting. She won't back down from this. She can't - not now, not when they're so close to getting out.
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"I can't." She almost scoffs at him, but manages to hold it back at the last second, making a small noise of frustration instead. There's no room for saying the wrong things anymore. With a sigh she pushes herself to her feet and begins to pace silently again. "If this doesn't end here, now, it never will for me. I will always be wondering, always hoping, always willing to do something incredibly stupid that will hurt both of us later - likely exposing this conversation to your family and getting you in more trouble than imaginable. I don't want that. I don't want this either, but I would never forgive myself if I got you in trouble like that."
Another, much more frustrated, sigh. "I just want to be free, Viatorus. I want to not feel these things anymore. I want to let you go and to move on. But right now, without hearing those words from you, I just fucking can't." Her gaze falls on him finally as she stops pacing, stern and unrelenting. She won't back down from this. She can't - not now, not when they're so close to getting out.