"Had I known this place existed and how I would end up here, I would have stayed home instead." While she lets that petulant though set in, she removes the strainer from her tea and then downs most of it in one breath.

"My life is my family. I can't protect them from here. I can't do anything from here that affects them. How am I supposed to make sure they're all right when I can't get back to them?" If he were to guess that she's never thought about what she would do for herself, he wouldn't be wrong. When you set a goal as broad and expansive as the one she has, it's impossible to ever fully accomplish it. It's easy to always have a fall back and to never leave options open for yourself.