It's a pity she's in such a dark place right now, because his beautiful compliments are going right over her head.
"Because a family as powerful as yours would see no value in someone like me," she says harshly. She hesitates and sighs before continuing in a much softer tone. "I have nothing to offer but my life - my non-magical life. If they decided I was worth nothing, then they could tell you to stop seeing me, and I won't let you choose me over your family." Family is the one thing that Amelia has always held above everything else. Having given her life to hers, and having interacted with families as powerful as his, she knows the truth of the matter; If someone isn't welcome in their world, they will find a way to shut said person out. She doesn't want that. She doesn't want to lose her closest friend. Her heart couldn't handle that.
She sits up slightly and holds her hands out in front of her, palms up to show they're empty. A soft frown plays at her lips as she stares at her hands. "Will I be enough for your family if all I have to offer is a desire to be close to their most precious son? Won't I simply be another distraction? And if I am, what then? I won't raise a hand against those who are most important to you unless you asked me to do so. And even then... I wouldn't do it if it would mean trouble for you."
Has she always been this hard on herself? Viatorus has seen this side of her before, though not nearly as intense. Sadness and depression have always lead to self-doubt for Amelia. Now that she's lost everything that made her who she was, though, it's reached to a whole new level.
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"Because a family as powerful as yours would see no value in someone like me," she says harshly. She hesitates and sighs before continuing in a much softer tone. "I have nothing to offer but my life - my non-magical life. If they decided I was worth nothing, then they could tell you to stop seeing me, and I won't let you choose me over your family." Family is the one thing that Amelia has always held above everything else. Having given her life to hers, and having interacted with families as powerful as his, she knows the truth of the matter; If someone isn't welcome in their world, they will find a way to shut said person out. She doesn't want that. She doesn't want to lose her closest friend. Her heart couldn't handle that.
She sits up slightly and holds her hands out in front of her, palms up to show they're empty. A soft frown plays at her lips as she stares at her hands. "Will I be enough for your family if all I have to offer is a desire to be close to their most precious son? Won't I simply be another distraction? And if I am, what then? I won't raise a hand against those who are most important to you unless you asked me to do so. And even then... I wouldn't do it if it would mean trouble for you."
Has she always been this hard on herself? Viatorus has seen this side of her before, though not nearly as intense. Sadness and depression have always lead to self-doubt for Amelia. Now that she's lost everything that made her who she was, though, it's reached to a whole new level.